Sunday, December 31, 2017


I can see you
take him on
You've been doing it
for so long
You forgot to feel
the soft wind
against your ear
The way you have felt
with no one near
Now you try
to calm your soul
Letting go
of what you can't control
And you feel like
you're spinning
You've been spinning
for so long
You take a look
at your reflection
You see a woman
that's too hard to question
But question you must
You are losing the face
you're needing to trust
And you wonder why
she can't let go
Of all the things
she already knows
I see you reach
for her face
Knowing she's the one
you must embrace

-May 2017

Thursday, December 7, 2017

That Echo

That echo
through the grain
The one
that beat so fiercely
I still feel it
in my chest
and full of things
once deeply buried
But all things
with time
Just like
the sun and the moon
I can feel it
Taste it
With each
heaving breath
I breathe

-May 2017

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Falling Fall Leaves

There's a game you play
When you watch the leaves falling
Deep down inside
you know what's been calling
But your hands keep on slipping
from those stiff silver reins
You trot a little faster
hoping it's the happiness you'll gain
But the ice keeps on melting
and nothing defrosts your bone
You can't seem to remember
the direction toward home
And your heart seems to linger
in all that dark empty space
Where you hold no desire
for what's trimmed with white lace

-April 2017

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

For Me

I can't
I can't look to the sun
There's nothing I see
Except an endlessly disintegrating dream
You know the one
The one you read about
Heard about
The one on the never-ending loop
You're never complete
without the strong hold of the opposite
Forget the things you can not outrun 
Look in the mirror first
before laying down each crown
I had to see where I've been
And it's dark
Dark as darkest night
Where the moon often
withheld its light
I had no torch to light my way
Only a feeling
too often ignored
I taste it now
It's been lacking conviction
So I've staked my claim on my own self
I feel that in my bones
And I'll no longer bleed
for anyone else but me

-August 2017

Wednesday, September 6, 2017

What I Need

I need softness
and tenderness
like my lungs
need air
I'm learning
to be gentle
with myself
I need you
to be gentle too

-September 2017

Sunday, September 3, 2017


In this small
blip of time
I'd like to lick you
like honey
I want to try
your taste
But my mouth
is already full
of things
I can't swallow

-September 2017

Sunday, April 30, 2017

The Coin Lies Flat

The coin lies flat
on the slate of stone
It's been spun like a top
then imbedded in bone
The soft texture can be felt
between each rough groove
It can leave you feeling
too afraid to move
But that's not a story
you haven't heard before
You've felt it stirring
each time you went for the door
And the rain stopped you
each lonely time
So you'd reach in your pocket
to pull out a dime
It's pressed hard in your fingers
and you give it a spin
While holding the breath
you forgot to breathe in

- January 2017

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Your Unfeathered Glow

What do you want 
from me
I'm tired of feeling you
I can't stand this shake
This beat
This breathless air
You make me forget
The sun
The moon
The starlit sky
Wasted minutes spent
asking why, why, why
What do you need
It's always something
I'm not ready to give
But you take it
like it's your own
Like I'm some need
to feed
your unfeathered glow
And I hate the way
you've danced in my bones
You've danced in my bones
You've. Danced. In. My. Bones.
Like you have a right
to make me your home
Is there anyplace safe
to rest my soul
How can I give the things
that are too hard to know

-April 2017

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

The Cracks Inside The Walls

How strong
do I look
I'm sturdier
than you think
I've been
my garden
the water
from the
kitchen sink
I've taken
this dust
and turned it
into wood
I've done it
in a way
you never
I could
But you
don't see
the work
Just the pieces
left behind
Then you
go and tell me
I'm losing
my own mind
I've built
my own supports
The frame
has been
in place
You can't
blow me down
then expect
to leave 
without a trace
Your needless
has echoed
through these halls
While I've 
been busy filling
all the cracks
inside the walls

-October 2015

Sunday, January 1, 2017

A Place To Be

Get up
Put the coffee on
Look out
at the sky
See the puffy
white clouds
moving gracefully by
With no particular
place to be
Today that feels
just like me
I'm just sitting here
in a chair
Looking back
at this last year
for where I've been
All the places
I've put myself in
In pain
In hate
In anger
In hurt
So many ways
I've learned
to use my words
In the deepness
where I've been
swallowed up whole
Out in the light
when I've learned
to truly let go
In the wind
where the tears
touched my cheeks
In love
where he's held me
while I've cried myself
to sleep
In solace
where it's okay
not to know
all the reasons why
In knowing
I'll learn them
all in time
In right now
the only place to be
I've learned
that my comfort
my home
lives inside of me
That's quite a remarkable
place to be

-January 2017