Reflection

I can see you

take him on

You've been doing it

for so long

You forgot to feel

the soft wind

against your ear

The way you have felt

with no one near

Now you try

to calm your soul

Letting go

of what you can't control

And you feel like

you're spinning

Spinning

You've been spinning

for so long

You take a look

at your reflection

You see a woman

that's too hard to question

But question you must

You are losing the face

you're needing to trust

And you wonder why

she can't let go

Of all the things

she already knows

I see you reach

for her face

Knowing she's the one

you must embrace

-May 2017

That Echo

That echo

through the grain

The one

that beat so fiercely

I still feel it

sinking

in my chest

Heavy 

and full of things

once deeply buried

But all things

rise

with time

Just like

the sun and the moon

I can feel it

Taste it

With each
heaving breath

I breathe

-May 2017

Falling Fall Leaves

There's a game you play

When you watch the leaves falling

Deep down inside

you know what's been calling

But your hands keep on slipping

from those stiff silver reins

You trot a little faster

hoping it's the happiness you'll gain

But the ice keeps on melting

and nothing defrosts your bone

You can't seem to remember

the direction toward home

And your heart seems to linger

in all that dark empty space

Where you hold no desire

for what's trimmed with white lace

-April 2017

For Me

I can't

I can't look to the sun

There's nothing I see

Except an endlessly disintegrating dream

You know the one

The one you read about

Heard about

The one on the never-ending loop

You're never complete

without the strong hold of the opposite

Forget the things you can not outrun 

Look in the mirror first

before laying down each crown

I had to see where I've been

And it's dark

Dark as darkest night

Where the moon often

withheld its light

I had no torch to light my way

Only a feeling

too often ignored

I taste it now

It's been lacking conviction

So I've staked my claim on my own self

I feel that in my bones

And I'll no longer bleed

for anyone else but me

-August 2017

What I Need

I need softness
and tenderness
like my lungs
need air
I'm learning
to be gentle
with myself
I need you
to be gentle, too


-September 2017

Desire

In this small

blip of time

I'd like to lick you
like honey

I want to try

your taste

But my mouth

is already full

of things

I can't swallow

-September 2017

The Coin Lies Flat

The coin lies flat

on the slate of stone

It's been spun like a top

then imbedded in bone

The soft texture can be felt

between each rough groove

It can leave you feeling

too afraid to move

But that's not a story

you haven't heard before

You've felt it stirring

each time you went for the door

And the rain stopped you

each lonely time

So you'd reach in your pocket

to pull out a dime

It's pressed hard in your fingers

and you give it a spin

While holding the breath

you forgot to breathe in

- January 2017

Your Unfeathered Glow

WHAT

What do you want 

from me

I'm tired of feeling you

I can't stand this shake

This beat

This breathless air

You make me forget

The sun

The moon

The starlit sky

Wasted minutes spent

asking why, why, why

WHY

What do you need

It's always something

I'm not ready to give

But you take it

like it's your own

Like I'm some need

to feed

your unfeathered glow

And I hate the way

you've danced in my bones

You've danced in my bones

You've. Danced. In. My. Bones.

Like you have a right

to make me your home

Is there anyplace safe

to rest my soul

How can I give the things

that are too hard to know

-April 2017

The Cracks Inside The Walls

How strong

do I look

I'm sturdier

than you think

I've been

growing

my garden

without

the water

from the

kitchen sink

I've taken

this dust

and turned it

into wood
I've done it
in a way
you never
thought
I could
But you
don't see
the work
Just the pieces
left behind
Then you
go and tell me
I'm losing
my own mind
I've built
my own supports
The frame
has been
in place
You can't
blow me down
then expect
to leave 
without a trace
Your needless
hammering
has echoed
through these halls
While I've 
been busy filling
all the cracks
inside the walls


-October 2015

A Place To Be

Get up

Put the coffee on

Look out

at the sky

See the puffy

white clouds

moving gracefully by

With no particular

place to be

Today that feels

just like me

I'm just sitting here

in a chair

Looking back

at this last year

Grateful

for where I've been

All the places

I've put myself in

In pain

In hate

In anger

In hurt

So many ways

I've learned

to use my words

In the deepness

where I've been

swallowed up whole

Out in the light

when I've learned

to truly let go

In the wind

where the tears

touched my cheeks

In love

where he's held me

while I've cried myself

to sleep

In solace

where it's okay

not to know

all the reasons why

In knowing

I'll learn them

all in time

In right now

the only place to be

I've learned

that my comfort

my home

lives inside of me

That's quite a remarkable

place to be

-January 2017