Today

I didn't plan on you

today

I thought I could just look

the other 

way

and continue

to feel 

free

for a minute there

I felt like I was just

me

I guess I didn't know

how to accept

that this is me

now

when the truth is

this has been me

I just didn't see it

somehow

It's not an everyday struggle

anymore

but some days

when I turn that knob

it's you

standing at my

door

and I want to slam it

and lock it up

tight

sometimes I can't 

find the courage

to stand alone and

fight

and I wonder

if that's

okay

because there's just times

when I don't want

to cry

today

no, I don't want

to cry

today

I say

as the tears

start rolling 

down

and my breathing

becomes

the only

sound

no, I didn't want

to cry

today

but if I let it out now

perhaps tomorrow

will be

a better 

day

-November 2014

My Everything

I'm in it

I'm in the

swimming valleys

of everlasting growth

I feel naked

next to you

That's how

it should be

There's no tomorrow

without your eyes

or your touch

Your warmth

precedes your smile

I lie beside you

and feel your breath

grow rapid and sweet

You're my everything

You exist

just for my soul

Your taste

drips from my tongue

and I know

I'll be yours forever

-October 2014

Under The Sun

Do we all live here

with our twisted souls

I've eaten the last cherry

from my cherry bowl

Does that matter

to you

the way I run

through water

while you watch

from the ledge

Once you could find me

lassoed to every word

that was said

I could hold on so tightly

to that thin

little thread

But I've undone

every fiber

one by one

Now if you'd ever

like to find me

I'll be the one basking

under the sun

-October 2014

Firefly

Hello firefly

that's been buzzing

in my ear

My darkest moments

haven't felt so dark

whenever you've been near

I've never seen anything

quite like you before

I giggle to myself

when I think of how

I almost missed

this door

But the bell

kept on ringing

and I often 

wondered why

Now I see all the light

that's been missing

thanks to this little firefly

-October 2014

Autumn

The warmth

of the sun

has become

bearable

My hair

shines golden

when touched

by the light

the old blooms

have all begun

to fade

and wither

becoming a part 

of the earth's soil

once again

I close my eyes

and feel the softness

of the light

breeze

letting me know

a new season

is coming

I watch

as she chews 

on grass

to soothe

her old belly

and listen

to the chirping

of the birds

reminding me

as I breath in

that I'm alive

-September 2014

My Way

I'm not looking

for another

beginning

I'm not looking 

for the ending

I'm just

traveling

the only way

I know how

I've made it

this far

And nothing is going

to keep me

from following

my heart

no matter who

you are

You can take

a good long look

at me

But you can keep

your opinions

to yourself

about what it is

you see

I know I'm not

a millionaire 

but judging someone

by their monetary worth

just isn't fair

I may not live

the way you do

Just remember

that I'm me

and nothing you say

will turn me

into you

-September 2014

I'll Always Breathe You In

I'm borrowing you

I hope that's 

okay

I know I'll have to

give you up

one of these 

days

But until

that day comes

I'm going to soak up

all the moments

you make me feel

undone

I'll cover every inch

of you

with the softness

of my skin

and before we close

our eyes

each night

I'll always 

breathe you in

-August 2014