A Little Lighter

I'm beginning to feel 
a little lighter
with each breath
that I breath in

I haven't felt this way
in forever
It's good to feel
this way 
again

I can close
my eyes now
and enjoy
the sunlight 
on my face

I'll remember
this moment
and how I'm beginning
to find my place

I haven't felt this way
in forever
It's good to feel 
this way
again

I'm going to keep on looking
at the bright side
Because I know this isn't
how my story ends

-April 2014

The Gold Underneath

I used to write

and then hide it all away

I was worried about

what everyone would say

But I'm getting to know myself

better with each day

And if I could say a few things to you

This is what I'd say

I am me

I am nobody else, but me

I'm finally breaking through

these walls I've built myself

And finally feeling free

I'm finding the gold

that's been buried underneath

this dust

The dust I've let settle

over me

For so long

For too long

And I'm beginning to see

Who I am meant to be

I'm allowing myself to feel

All the things I've been trying 

to keep in

And it's good to feel the warmth again

and to see these gold flecks

shining in my skin

-April 2014

What Do You Need Me For? (My Ode To The Universe)

I don't usually write notes to go along with my poems, but this is something I'm in the middle of working on. It's sort of a long one, so bare with me.

What Do You Need Me For? (My Ode To The Universe)

You don't have to

look at me

But if you do

would you mind telling me

what it is

you see

Because I don't see

Anything

Anymore

Sometimes I wonder

what keeps me

From running out

running out

your front door

Oh, what do you

what do you 

want me for?

I've tried to

close my eyes

Sometimes I hate to see

the sun rise

It just reminds me that

there's another day

I don't want to keep feeling

like I'm fading away

Sometimes I think I'll do

Anything

Anything

to keep it all

inside

and I'll hide my hands

behind

My back

I promise I won't lose track

of what you say

to me

As long as you tell me

what it is that you see

Because I'm losing sight of

Everything

Everything

used to be

so damn pretty

Maybe that was just

make believe

So I'm standing here

at your door

I promise I'll stay

if you tell me

what you need

What do you need

me for?

-April 2014

Altered

These lakes are becoming

a little dryer

The sand isn't as muddy

as I'm used to

As time moves on I find

that I'm not looking for more

I'm not searching 

for your difference

Although at times I do wonder

where all that water went

Did it somehow get soaked up

and become part of your soul?

Or has it merely been sucked down

into the vast dryness of the earth?

All I know

is what I'm seeing

My sandcastles

just won't have moats anymore

-March 2014

Still Wading

I close my eyes

and just swim in darkness

Sometimes the darkness feels better

I've been wading in this water

for so long

I'm just now beginning to feel my limbs 

grow stronger

It seems they have come too late

My head is barely above the rim

My body seems to be stiffening

I've been kicking too hard

and for too long

My limbs have grown tired

Somehow

Someway

I know I need to keep kicking

-April 2014