Passivity

I pray 
like I fuck

Carelessly
and without
Adoration

Conform
Comply
Submit

Isn't that what
they want

That's what he wanted
And that's what he wanted
And that's what she wanted too

Drip with passivity
and they'll do it
gently

Don't agitate
Don't turn
Don't breathe
too loud

Don't exist

Keep your opinions
to yourself

And don't question
them
Don't question
them
Don't question
them

Agree
Agree
Agree

You learn to be
numb

You crave it
like a sweetness
you've never had

Feeling
Healing

They both mean burning

Burning
like you've never known


-September 2017

A Piece Of My Truth

Yes

Yes, I know

that it's been there

Here

This whole time

I've refused

the very idea

of it all

It's been here

Setting fire

to my veins

Poisoning

my air

and causing

all the rapid beating

of my heart

You want

admittance

for the sake

of breathing

I've been

letting myself

suffocate

while rubbing

daisies

between my

finger tips

Waiting for a peace

I never allow

to come

-January 2016

Admittedly Broken

Running

Harder

Faster

Trying

to catch up

to the light

I keep feeling

the fierce fight

stirring

It can no longer

be contained

I've been broken

So broken

Trying to mend

myself

with tools

that held

no reasoning

Avoiding

reflections

with closed eyes

and a turned cheek

-January 2016